"... who am I, O Lord God... that you have brought me thus far? ... And what more can David say to you for honoring your servant? For you know your servant." 1 Chronicles 17:16, 18
Like David, I have found myself asking this very question, and asking it often. Particularly in the moments where I am broken in complete humility at the fact that the God of heaven would save me from death at birth, despite the doctors reports that I wouldn't live and IF I did, I would most likely suffer from disabilities of several types, and then, that He would excel me and prosper me the way He graciously has. I'm left in awe at the fact that He has bestowed purpose, destiny, and identity to me and sheltered me in the midst of brokenness, and that He plans to use me to help others. And, it's not just me! I fully believe that each and every one of us is here for a purpose. Not a single person is an accident. It's not like God sneezed and in His omnipotence, He accidentally created you. No. He created you to love you and for you to love Him and love others out of the overflow of receiving His love, grace, and mercy. And along with that, comes purpose.
We can, like David, ask God who we are, for He KNOWS. He knows why you were created. He knows everything about you. And He knows why He's brought you to where you are just as much as He knows where He's taking you. I believe David's question is multilayered. It's an expression of humility, in understanding that compared to God and His greatness we are lowly and without Jesus, unworthy. It's seeking identity and asking for understanding of who He really is and gratefully acknowledging that clearly there's a purpose for his life if God keeps moving him forward. And, it's revelatory in him realizing that he can be confident that God can answer the questions of his heart and help him understand who he has uniquely been made to be. What a great example of how we can boldly go before God and ask Him the questions we don't have answers to! What a great expression of humility and vulnerability.
God KNOWS you and He wants to be known by you, let us strive for deeper intimacy and revelation.
Thank you that you are the all-knowing God who created me uniquely, beautifully, and purposely. Would you help me to have a greater grasp of your love for me, that through your love I would receive the revelation of who I really am in you and walk that out with boldness and confidence, God. Thank you that when I doubt or have worries and fears, you are with me. You have all the answers I need and you provide a safe place for me to be open and vulnerable. Thank you for being a good and loving Father and for creating me with purpose and giving me the ability me to fulfill that purpose for your glory, as I grow closer to you and stronger in you. In Jesus name, Amen.
"We know also that the Son of God has come and given us understanding, so that we know him who is true. And we are in him who is true by being in his Son Jesus Christ..."
1 John 5:20